無題

我們住在不同的樓層内。

中間隔著一層層平行的天花板

我
歇斯底里的喊著


你耐心的告訴我
到底，我們還是住在不同的樓層内。

永遠

Song updated @ 20090105 (Under "pressure" from Mr Composer/Arranger/Producer ........... -_-||| )

A new song from abe neuyabe

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Composed by abe
Lyrics by abe
Arranged by abe

看着你慢慢睡了
我好想哭
我一直都相信
相信你是永远

到底我们的一生中
都在寻找些什么
你说：“找着那个人
陪我一生到永远“

我想一个人出走
你并没有哭
因为一直都相信
相信我是永远

那么多年过去了
都在寻找些什么？
你还是说：”一个人
陪我一生到永远“

Raindrops

Another rainy night.

Another night spent missing you.

明白

The book continued

'Hello', I said.

'I've been waiting for you,' she said.
I embraced her, rested my head on her shoulder, and began to cry. She stroked my hair, and by the way she touched me I began to understand what I did not want to understand, I began to accept what I did not want to accept.

'I've waited for you in so many ways', she said, when she saw that my tears were abating. 'Like a desperate wife who knows that her husband has never understood her life, and that he will never come to her, and so she has no option but to get on a plane and go back, only to leave again after the next crisis, then go back and leave and go back...'

The wind had dropped; the trees were listening to what she was saying.

'I waited as Penelope waited for Ulysses, as Romeo waited for Juliet, as Beatrice waited for Dante. The empty steppes were full of memories of you, of the times we had spent together, of the countries we had visited, of our joys and our battles. Then I looked back at the trail left by my footprints and I couldn't see you.

'I suffered greatly. I realised that I had set off on a path of no return and that when one does that, one can only go forward. I went to the nomad I had met before and asked him to teach me to forget my personal history, to open me up to the love that is present everywhere. With him I began to learn about the Tengri tradition. One day, I glanced to one side and saw that same love reflected in someone else's eyes, in the eyes of a painter called Dos'.

I said nothing.

'I was still very bruised. I couldn't believe it was possible to love again. He didn't say much; he taught me to speak Russian and told me that in the steppes they use the word "blue" to describe the sky even when it's grey, because they know that, above the clouds, the sky is always blue. He took me by the hand and helped me to go through those clouds. He taught me to love myself rather than to love him. He showed me that my heart was at the service of myself and of God, and not at the service of others.

'He said that my past would always go with me, but that the more I freed myself from facts and concentrated on emotions, the more I would come to realise that in the present there is always a space as vast as the steppes waiting to be filled up with more love and with more of life's joy.

'Finally, he explained to me that suffering occurs when we want other people to love us in the way we imagine we want to be loved, and not in the way that love should manifest itself - free and untrammelled, guiding us with its force and driving us on.'

The book

A good read.

Kept my brain working non-stop.

Thanks for the book.


We won't know as much until we actually go through them.

Lesson learned painfully.

untitled

I had a dream.
A sweet one.

I saw a future city.
Incredible skyscrapers, floating vehicles.
and a smiling me.


Thanks.

Process

What are Questions?
They are something that comes in pair with answers, sometimes not.
Something that you ask when you don't know / understand about something.
or something that you ask when you start to doubt with your knowledge about something.

What do you do when you don't have the answer?
Keep the question in an 'archive' inside,
the answer will reveal itself when it's time.
No, reveal itself, doesn't mean that it will come to you by itself. Most of the time you'll need to explore inside yourself to find it.
You'll see it when you've get rid of the shades, the dust and everything that is in front of you.
Putting aside everything that you've 'known', your personal histories, rules defined by the don't-know-whos, reset everything to zero, and explore.
Including some sensitive areas inside you, so fragile until they bring fear and uncomfortableness when they're touched.
The process is sometimes painful, but the satisfaction it brings when you've got your answer is infinite.
When you finally got the answer, it doesn't mean that it is the end of the process. Questions remain in the archive. At different stages, when you get more input from life experiences, questions might pop out from the archive again, and you might want to review the paired answer. And that starts another process of exploration again.

Pointless

Wasn't working on a friday.

##########################

Coincidently joined an ex-colleague's farewell lunch.
Welcome to the ex-b2b big family.

##########################

Sitting somewhere outside Big Orange donuts, having my jasmine tea while trying to munch the LOMA texts. Big Orange outlet's lady boss sitting at the next table called the staff out one by one and hand them their salary.
The happiness on the staffs' face are genuine.

I love to see people smile.
I love your smile.


##########################

Got myself some gems from Rock Corner again.
Spending $$ on CD is still one of the few things that could lighten me up a little. :D

##########################

Couldn't believe that my legs were actually trembling during the session at wings just now.
Why am I so nervous? I don't know.
Some sorta Autism perhaps :P
At some points I don't even dare to look into other's eyes and talk properly, even when it's a casual talk.

Thanks 佳旺 for the great help and the great tips.
Fear is really something I should overcome.

##########################

neuyabe is getting more gigs.
Congrats abe. Your songs are getting more exposure :)
Hard work proved to be worth while.

##########################

Lost direction on my way back home.
It was supposed to be a 10 minutes drive.
Driving in a totally unknown road in the dark.
My full tank petrol assures me that no matter how I'm still going to reach home.
Nothing could be worse.
Despite the darkness that surrounds me. I'm still quite sure that I'm heading the right direction.
Based on my 7th sense.
And I was right this time.
Managed to get back home without making any U-turns. (as if it is something to be proud of -_-" )
And the bonus I got is I learnt a new route. Toll free. Hahaha.
And the new scenery along the drive. (Ok lar, it's not dark all the way. There are still shop lots and houses along the way)

#########################

When all of these happened. I was like watching myself from a distance.
Numb. Couldn't feel anything.




What could I say.


Goodbye October.

Currently playing: Radiohead - Paranoid Android

?

Beautiful.

Birds

:)

rol and AH5A had their first appearance on stage.
:D





too bad i didn't do it well.

..

Good show, rol.

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gosh..








sigh...

The Rain Project 1/12 - blooming foetus ( 雨计划1 /12- 盛开的胚胎)

Cucumber

Calmness.

Never been so clear with myself.

The series of questions has been asked before.
And I'm asking myself again,
after all of these that had happened.
I find myself giving the same pair of answers.

The difference is it's clearer now than before.
For what I want for myself.


No matter whether you believe it or not.

Have no idea of what will happen next.
But I'm still grateful for everything that has happened.

It's another rainy night.

And I asked myself why bother others not understanding?
then I realized I was still living in the world where other people define how rules should be.
When they think things are weird, they are weird.
When they think things are right, they are right.

Why bother how people define things.
In fact maybe we don't even know who defined the rules, we just follow.


Follow nobody's rule.
As long as I'm clear with myself.
And yes, I'm absolutely clear now.

i'm sorry

Long long day

It was a long day.
It started yesterday night, when we stepped in the studio.
3 hours.
Irregular heart beat, reddish face, fluffy brain, and a sore throat.
Not a good combination.
Screwed things.

And then the sleep, with a very awake brain.
Trying to tell myself to do better in the next session.
And then got up, did last minute practises, and found out the guitar is still buzzing.
Worried. But the great guitar doc managed to fix it in a very short time.

And then the mic test.
And then another 2 hours.
Facing the crowd. It was still different from what I was trying to imagine.
Nervous.

And suddenly it was over.
Huge relief and a sudden tiredness.
But I earned a great experience.
Big big room to learn and improve.


Thanks dajie. I would not have manage to do today's session without your words.
Thanks obb for the support. Came all the way -_-" You are the cutest dad in the world. :D
Thanks B2B mates for the full support always.
Thanks JJ for saving my guitar and the support.


Good show, abe!
Better ones ahead! (hahaha. i wish)



p/s: Thanks for coming.
p/s2: Get well soon.

untitled again

mr. o likes to visit on stressful days.
great.

---------

good luck.
good show.

---------

p/s: addiction is like damien's works.



sleep tight.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh!!!!!!!!!!!!

As title.

I just feel like screaming out like that.
Using a pitch 2 octave higher than the highest pitch you can ever imagine of.
I'll be very grateful if someone allows me to do so.

Sigh.
It's like there's only carbon dioxide + nitrogen around you.
Can't breathe at all.


Soul got sucked out.
If you've seen me 'physically', trust me, that wasn't me. Haha.

Argh.


Disclaimer: Another rant post.
musyanic will survive, as always.

untitled

Clarity.
And the attic faith.

Content.

:)

Had a great day.

Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.

Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.

And thank you.

- chew chew chew -

four lines

||||

Too little time

  +  

  +  
 

Just in case you're wondering the reason of me being missing in action lately.

24 hours per day is just not enough -_-"



p/s @ 20080925 : updated pic to avoid confusion -_-"

Green Mountain

又是一首聼了有想哭的衝動的歌。沉重。
This is another song that just makes me wanna cry when listening to it.


"旁人全部也一本通書 向前看
青山之花不再怒放"

"人類以為強於 拯救地球 卻總摸錯地方"


請按我1
請按我2
請按我3
請按我4


青山黛瑪

曲/編: 陳奐仁for the invisible men/何秉舜@goomusic
詞：黃偉文
監：陳奐仁for the invisible men/何秉舜@goomusic/
hocc@goomusic


你是有病的 所以被寵~愛
留住半邊青山 因你在
你讓世上幾多哲學家 自信不~再
捉摸不到你大概

人類意難平的 一切問題 你都一笑避開
世間太傻 而你是天~才
旁人話你悲~哀 不過在你眼中 清醒才悲哀
繁忙才悲哀
常人難道比瘋子更可~愛

如何能像你安居這套房
尋回被拒於知識之外那點光
旁人全部也一本通書 向前看
怎麼不敢倒放
你是絕美的 不過未釋~放
囚在最荒的島 不靠~岸
博士及智者 給發明品 自我安~葬
簡單的你卻在看

人類以為強於 拯救地球 卻總摸錯地方
良善的光 在彼方 唯有你 才能開荒


好想學你 安居這套房
逃離大氣氛想得複雜那不安
旁人全部也一本通書 向前看
青山之花不再怒放

如何能像你安居這套房
尋回被拒於知識之外那點光
旁人全部也一本通書 向前看
青山之花不再怒放
青山之花想再……

Selfish

I have to admit that at times I'm still very much overpowered by the endless negative thoughts that covers me like a huge tidal wave.
Sometimes, I manage to get out before being completely swallowed by it.
Other times, the negative thoughts and fear will just eat into the big hole inside me, further deepening it.

And all these while I will let it happen just like that, taking it as an issue that matters only to myself.
Didn't realize that it will actually affect others as well, and make things worse.
Selfish enough.
I'm not living in this planet as a lone subject.
I have people that I care for very much, and I'm very lucky to have their unconditional love and patience.
I have to really learn to take account of things that will get affected by my selfish act, and learn to believe.

Thanks for listening, and believing.

Loop-the-loop

Realized something interesting.

I have posts with the same title, few years back, and I guess I must be having the same feeling when I posted them.

Check:
Too Much 1
and
Too much 2

Realized this when I wanted to post similar thing again.
This is like repeating the history, which is very no good.

Sometimes, even I can't understand myself too.

It's like you have nothing to hold on to, and are about to drown in the middle of the Pacific Ocean. Suddenly some life saving driftwood came down from heaven and you just cling onto it so tightly with every drop of energy you have.

Maybe far beneath the human being skin is a deep hollow, left rotten for a while. The speed of it rotting is slower than me trying to close up the hole.

Anyway. This is just another meaningless rant post (like my many other posts) while things are trying to be sorted.

Repeating mistakes is still no good. And there should be no excuse. :D


p/s of the day : Whoa. Longest post in the past 2 months. Hahahaha.
p/s of the day II : I want to sell ad again.



p/s of the day III : Still very grateful for everything :) (looping grey room)

haha

I'm a ...



Good night everyone.

p/s: Great game :)

100种生活

忍不住想推薦的好聲音。
Good things are meant to be shared.

Ads

http://elegantfarewell.blogspot.com

http://www.neuyabe.com

http://ikuwashi.blogspot.com

----

No striking banner / animated gif / creative taglines for them,
just some simple links and room for you to discover the great music by yourself.

Trust me. They're worth the clicks.

風箏 kite

melted

And so..

I'm saying Goodbye and Hello.


You saved me.

got hit at one eye.

Serenity

Living a new life without internet access (for the moment).

I'm surprised for the serenity it brings..
and I'm enjoying it.

Yeah.

Welcome back, musyanic.

Friday Blues

Am I having Friday blues or what?
Haha.





*poke*
Perk up, will ya?

一首新歌引起的連鎖反應

失敗者的飛翔




当你疯狂地追求别人所定义的成功 或许真正需要的 只是一个穿越距离的拥抱...

拥抱 也许是 一个眼神 或者只是一首理解你的歌

陈绮贞说:"08"年春天我对这首歌有了新的想法，我用我第一把Gibson吉他和尘封一段时间的手风琴，重新编了一个版本，我希望用音乐展开一幅辽阔的图画， 希望这段时间遇到的，自觉不被拥抱的人 失去归所的人，脚踏实地却也渴望飞的人， 都在这幅画里被接受了。

source: http://www.haoting.com/musiclist/ht_571d673dd81911c5.htm



渴望擁抱的我，
不自覺地又陷入陳綺貞佈下的漩渦裏。
久久
都囘不過神來。



80% 完美的日子。


80%，算A等了吧。

太多。


喜歡一個人孤獨的時刻
但不能喜歡太多。


華麗的冒險。


懷念那些一起狂做夢
一起追夢的日子。
怎麽一個人走
路會艱難了那麽多。


腐朽。


美麗會凋零
泥土埋葬森林





一圈又一圈。。
頭暈

Misty

Everything is covered by the mist.
You thought you've seen something.
You thought you know where you're heading to.
You thought you're ready to walk down the path.

But when the wind blows,
suddenly everything's gone.

You're back to the starting point.
Where you have no idea of

Where you are
Who you are
What you are

Miss

r.i.p

在我們還未學會自己吃飯以前，您縂細心的把拿手的‘冬菇炒雞’撕成絲狀，再送進我
們的小嘴。
傍晚的滅蚊+‘撿蚊尸’活動是我們最期待的。
我們那半咸不淡的廣東話，也只有您才聼得懂。
還教會了我們一些丁家特有的馬來式廣東。

從小，您就把我們好好呵護，才有今天肥肥壯壯的我們。
而叛逆的我卻縂愛和您頂嘴。
在您生病后還到處亂跑，沒好好照顧您。
還要讓您擔心。。

對不起。。

您會永遠活在我們的心中。
安息吧。

我很想念您。

Hmm

This is interesting.

Check this out.


Laughed out loud when I saw this somewhere on the internet.
Let's hope the tour guide cum driver didn't give me the wrong info that time.
-_-"

holy shit

For some specific reason.
From now on, I might need to think twice before I pen anything.

Hmm, I don't think I like this.

A very dangerous piece

Touch at your own risk.














did I say ..

Joy

Aiks.
I've overspent again.

But I have to admit that spending money on things you like can always bring you joy.

(Q&A) - A

我怎麽了

Simple chords

Great great songs, with only a few simple chords.
Amazing.

p/s: The petrol price hike is going to kill me..

Flowing notes

愛情花 - 何韻詩
Album: Free {love}
作曲 : 何韻詩

漸漸地跌下來吧 靜靜地降下來吧
幸運便接住換來戀愛那朵花
自問未算壞人吧 願望未算特殊吧
願命運最後及時給我那朵花

但數十億人 如何辦
上帝在天堂投下多少萬片 愛情花瓣

請准我投入這遊戲 唯求參予別要勝利
誰拿住花瓣 都得到你 我怎麽比
終於我明白這遊戲 何時戀愛沒有限期
這世上誰是你 我拿著我的心等待你
(要如何遇上你)

大量地散下來吧 混亂地渴下來吧
在路上每個路人都有愛過嗎
熱鬧盛況在樓上 浪漫大戰在樓下
寂寞是看著別人擁有太多花

請准我投入這遊戲 唯求參予別要勝利
誰拿住花瓣 都享過愛侶福氣
終於我明白這遊戲 何時戀愛沒有限期
這世上誰是你 我拿著我的心等待你
我從未共我伴侶一起

這個稱呼永遠都不用了


I have a rather peculiar way of listening songs.
My brain somehow automatically filters out the lyrics, and what enters my ears is just the melody line, the vocal and how the supporting instrument lines behind.
Normally I'll only start to notice the lyrics when someone tells me about it.
It's not a good thing though, the lyrics and the melodies form the song as a whole. I'm now at the stage of learning to appreciate the whole thing together.

Meanwhile, this is a song which has the capability to catch my nerves whenever I have the mood to dig out and play my old albums.
I haven't manage to understand its lyrics fully yet, but the melody itself strikes me when I listen to it everytime.

History

Haha.
Reading my own old posts from the very beginning is fun.
It's like reading history logs, the only difference is those things happened on myself, and those are my very true feelings at that time.
Hmm.
Fun. Hahaha.

No matter good or bad, glad that I've jotted them down :)

Kadababoom

Bubble is cute and lovely.
You watch it grow bigger, and bigger.
And then..

"kadababoom"

- dead air -


No matter how beautiful it used to be, it's just a fantasy.
The bigger it is, the more it hurts when it splats on your face.
Blame the one who chewed the gum and blew it so big.

You'll need plenty of time to clean that stubborn stain on your face too.


p/s: Old friend revisited. Shit.
Shoo. Mr O, I don't like you.

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Current track playing on my random playlist - Fake Plastic Tree, Radiohead

Warm

Cloudy.
But I'm lucky enough to have a buncha 白痴靓女丑男 (direct translate will be -- idiot beauties and the beasts, and it's not me who invented this name) friends around to sweep the dark clouds away.
Haha.
Even when you don't have the chance to talk to them,
you'll just smile from the bottom of your heart,
when you read their blog & 白痴 (*idiotic) comment pairs.

Haha.
Nice to have all of you there.

Today

今天
我用了一整天的时间去想念你。


p/s:
Q: What's better than playing a song and really enjoying it?
A: Playing a great song with other ensemble players and everyone is really enjoying it.

Enjoyed the song just now. Made up my day. :D
Looking forward for the concert on this Saturday.


p/s II : Yea, I love 'p/s' a lot. Haha.

Memory leakage

用盡所有力氣，把回憶放進月光寶盒裏，牢牢鎖著。
以爲從此可以刀槍不入了，還在沾沾自喜。
當那老舊的鎖頭再也承受不到盒子裏要爆開的情緒，
只要輕輕一碰，所有東西都以數千倍的速度+強度迸出來。

哇~好厲害。

First gig

20080503 是個很重要的日子。
終于完成了neuyabe成軍以來第一個公開演出。

終于能在臺上打鼓（上次廣東音樂當然不能算數），算是了了自己一個心願。
到現在我還能清楚地記得在臺上那短短的十幾分鐘的情景。
從來沒有過的感覺。
真得很享受在臺上的每一秒鐘。
甚至還很希望時間可以停下來。

感謝neuyabe讓我有機會和你們一起玩。
感謝朋友落力前來捧場。
感謝台下其他更厲害的鼓手，遞來鼓勵的眼神。
感謝團長上臺前的一席話，讓非常緊張的我決定不顧一切豁出去了。
感謝大家沒有嫌棄。

當天也看到了很多很棒的樂團/電團。
很高興本地有這麽多很棒+passionate的音樂人。
還有願意為很多新樂團舉辦這次活動的主辦單位。辛苦了。
salute.

希望還有機會參與這樣的演出。




Really hope you were there.

Be True

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh.
There's a list of things I wanted to do.
And I didn't achieve anything until now.

I always get frustrated easily when I can't finish what I wanted to do.

I always get frustrated but sometimes I don't know how to express them.
I always get frustrated but sometimes I prefer to keep them inside me.
I always get frustrated.
I really do.

I don't know why sometimes I chose to keep them inside instead of just letting them out.
I don't know why sometimes I tried to act / think like other people, hiding / ignoring my own ugly thoughts, trying to be someone better.

So, yea.
Be true to myself. Stop acting like a saint.
I hate many things.
Hate it when I can't finish things that I planned to do.
Hate it when my plan goes out of its way.
Hate it when you keep pouring questions after questions .
(and the list goes on, but I'm a bit too tired to recall and write them here. )

Feel better.
Just realize how important it is to be honest with oneself.
Be true to the feelings in you.
Be true to what first pops up in your mind.
A small lie to yourself that you think you can bear with, can grow unexpectedly heavy as time goes by.

And my mind is very blur now.
Time to sleep.
Be honest to my biological clock. :D


Oh yea.
Thanks for those who understands me without questioning when I'm too frus / lazy to explain anything.
That really made me feel much better.
Thanks pal.


And this is not part of my to-do-list.
And still I achieved nothing tonight.

Damn.

Good night.

我真的以爲

我以爲我的感冒已痊愈了，
可是爲什麽今天鼻水又流個不停？

我以爲我可以不再想你了，
可是爲什麽你簡單的一句話還是可以讓我的淚腺不受控制？

East Java Breakaway - ep3

火山行，一個人在偌大的空曠土地上走著。大自然的寧謐可以熨平你從都市帶來的煩躁，騰出一些空間來思考以爲經以遺忘了的東西。

一大片荒涼。嗅不到一絲生命的氣息。
唯一會動的，大概只有那周而復始不斷被噴出來的濃煙，無時無刻的在改變自己的形狀，努力的想為這一片淒涼做點什麽。



當身邊所有的東西都變了，一切都歸土的時候，我們是否還能堅定的站在這兒？



你很清楚自己的方向，不斷往前走。偶爾會停下來，回頭鼓勵在你身後努力要追上節奏的我。慢慢的，你不再回頭。你的背影越來越小。不見。
（一張自己蠻喜歡的照片）



找不到你，還是我沒有那份勇氣循著你的足跡去把你找回來？

The Kite Runner

Just came back from the cinema watching this movie.
As usual, I'm bad at writing reviews or anything close to that. So don't expect any details about the movie, what I can write is just my feelings after watching the movie.

I was in a dilemma whether to catch this movie in the cinema at this time, as I'm still halfway reading the book(although I have bought it for quite a while), and I thought I won't continue to read it after I watch the movie. In the end I gave in, don't want to miss watching this movie in the cinema.

After the first 5 minutes in the movie, I decided to finish the book. Lotsa details in the books are left out, such as some important parts which describe the main characters' personality, which are reasonable, as it's impossible to stuff everything into a movie. But the plot of the story is still good enough to make the movie a blockbuster in America.

Parts I like most: The letter reading part, the fruits throwing part, children in Afganisthan running without legs, and the last part, when Amir say back the same sentence to Hassan's son: "I'll do that a thousand times for you" (or something like that). Good enough for me to shed tears, although I have to admit I do that quite often :P Hmm. Overwhelmed by the loyalty, friendship, and the war scenes in the story -- scenes we won't see and would not want to see.

Oh ya. And I like the music / soundtrack inside.

Peace.

p/s: This post originates from a comment I left in a buddy's blog few minutes ago. Her post 1 month ago is part of the reason I decided not to miss this movie in the cinema too. Thanks.

同場加映：剛剛想起幾個月前曾經看過這片網志
http://hk.myblog.yahoo.com/jojopumpkinjojo/article?mid=11685
（我很喜歡的梁祖堯的blog）。剛剛又revisit這篇，看來我真的必須讀完那本小説才能評斷是不是真得有如他說得那樣了。

East Java Breakaway - ep2

半夜三更，好不容易抵達Cemoro Lawang, 是前往我們的目的地 -- Mount Bromo 之前的落腳処。
在非常累的情況下不管三七二十四住進了第一閒看到的旅館。（第二天才知道住貴了~）
聽説火山的日出非常漂亮。四點半，在又冷又累又沒有帶寒衣的情況下，也不管三七二十四的決定繼續睡，不去看了。

結果在其他旅客都差不多看完火山回來后，貪睡得我們才開始要出去逛~ -_-|||

從旅社看下去的風景。還好有這麽漂亮的風景看，貴的房租才不算白給。

婆罗摩火山(Mount Bromo)位于登格尔山山巅上。欲登婆罗摩火山必须物攀登格尔山。登格尔山犹如一个被削去尖顶的园锥体，在顶部形成一个边缘高而中部低的大台地，南北宽9公里，东西长10公里，台地内是一片过去由登格尔火山爆发而形成的沙海。（資料來源：http://www.51766.com/www/detailhtml/1100028801.html）

吃完早餐后，我們就開始從旅社步行到火山區去。

Taman Nasional = 国家公园吧~ 正门口

在门口遇到了昨天在我们上来的司机。他帮我们用印尼话和工作人员说了几句，工作人员就只收我们当地人的门票费用RP6,000(外国观光客收费RP25,000)。之后也一直跟着我们，‘陪’着我们到火山顶去。嗯，你猜得没错，之后他当然和我们收钱了。“Wang letih”，他说。我们还嫌他一路上为我们挡去了不少好的镜头。当你举起镜头要拍摄的时候他就大剌剌站在那里望着镜头。真的不知要哭还是要笑好。

向火山前進！Left: Mount Bromo，活火山。 Right: Mount Batok,死火山。Middle: 黑色的沙地，沙質很柔軟，幼細，還向沙灘一樣。

新版Salem廣告？那裏有Horse Riding服務，走不久就會有人問你要不要騎馬上火山了。這時候的我們還很精神，就沒要了。

暫時這樣，真的累了。欲知詳情請待下回分解~

Demo 之 無心插柳 篇 || Accidental demo

Neuyabe 的 jamming session, 除了為即將來臨的首場演出之歌曲練團之外，最近也會即興現場夾一些chord + rhythm, 感覺還滿不錯的，尤其是在大家開始熟絡之後。而團長B也會為每次的練團錄音。

話説對上一回的jamming session,我們也在還沒開始練我們的歌曲之前玩了一首歌。起了chord 和 rhythm 之後B就開始'wee wee'吹口哨了。One take搞掂，重聽錄下的片段效果卻還滿不錯。很raw的感覺。很開心。雖然很簡單，我自己卻滿喜歡的。希望你也一樣會喜歡。

很喜歡練團的感覺啊~~ :(

-要聽歌請按我-（轉載自動態度）

In Neuyabe's jamming sessions recently, besides doing our routine practise for our coming first gig, sometimes we will also try out some chords + rhythms on the fly. These free jamming session gets better as we get closer and know each other more. Our band leader B will also do recording for every session.

In our last jamming session last week, we did a free jamming session too before we start practising our first song. After trying out a few bars of chords + rhythm, B starts to whistle out some melodies. And tadaa. This is what we got.
- Click me -(Source: Dongtaidu)
Took this in one shot. Sounds quite nice. I like its very raw feeling. Hope you'll like it too.

- Addicted to jamming -

East Java Breakaway - ep1

在自己尚還有一丁點決心的時候必須趕快開始第一篇。我有一種預感自己會放棄po照片。趁那一天還沒到來，大家幫我祈禱吧

Before I decide give up, here comes my first post about my trip to East Java.
Really have to force myself to start writing something.

如果要我用三個字來形容這趟旅程的第一天，我會説‘屁股痛’。
比想象中遲上飛機，在LCCT坐了一段時間。
又在飛機上坐了一段時間。

I will describe the first day of my trip as 'A pain in the ass'.
We waited in LCCT longer than expected. Sit, wait and sleep.
And then continue to sit, wait and sleep in the plane.

入夜的天空，一切都變得朦朧。（其實是手震）
當事物看得不是那麽清楚的時候，是不是都顯得比較美麗呢？

Blurry scene after dark. When you can't see things clearly, do they look more beautiful than their usual look?

抵達之後，去了機場的遊客服務櫃檯索取資料。工作人員還蠻友善的，詳細地解釋該搭那一輛巴士，車資多少等。
令我有點意外的是他們沒劈頭就要你到外面搭Taxi。
這過程中遇到了和我們同一班機的兩個背包客,我們就share了一輛 Taxi 到巴士總站去。
那是很有趣+看起來比實際年齡年輕太多了的兩個人。

We went to tourist information center when we arrived. The staffs explained to us in detail which bus to take, where to transfer, and how much do we need to pay for the bus.
To my surprise, they didn't ask us to take taxi directly, for the sake of "don't need to explain so much".
Met 2 backpackers from the same flight, and we shared a cab to the bus station.
These 2 fellas are real cute. And look way younger than they are.

Bungurasih 巴士站.
Bus station, Bungurasih .

那裏的巴士都有個很有趣的現象。在等巴士開的時候，會不斷有人上巴士向你兜售食物/玩具/書本，或上車彈彈唱唱再向你收零錢的。其中有些是亂來的，有些卻真的唱得不錯。搵食艱難啊~

While waiting for the bus to depart, different group of peoples will hop on the bus to sell stuff like titbits, toys, books, or sing on the bus and collect coins from you later. Some of them can really sing.

又坐了大概兩個多小時的巴士。終于抵達另外一個巴士站 -- 去轉車。折騰到來，抵達Cemoro Lawang的時候已經是淩晨了。又累又冷。

And another 2 hour plus of sitting, waiting and sleeping, to another bus station -- to transfer bus. It's already midnight when we finally reached our destination - Cemoro Lawang. Totally exhausted. And that place is real f-ing cold.

就這樣完成了第一天的‘屁股痛’。

Hmm

是已經接受了，還是原來只是學會了怎樣讓自己避開那根刺？

p/s of the day: The color of my photos suck very much.. Wasted the beautiful view there. Sigh :(
Now I need more time to do post processing some more, with my very limited photoshop knowledge :(

Hopefully I will still be able to finish them and post them here.
Stay tuned.

p/s of the day II: Ok la.. here's a sneak preview :D

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Edited @ 10/04/2008:

Just realize this is my 100th post! Wow.
Never expected myself to be able to maintain this thing until now.

Coincidently it falls on my post after a different yet important trip.
Hopefully it's another brand new start.




Back from the trip.
As usual, always feel hollow after every trip I have.
Hope I'll recover fast this time.

A breakaway at this time is needed for me, and it came in the right time.
Accepted some facts that I refused to face for a very long time.
Feel much better.

Thanks, pal.


我回來了。。
和往常一樣，完成一段旅程后都會覺得空虛。
希望這一次可以復原的快一點。

很慶幸在我很需要的時候，有了這次出遊放空的機會。
讓自己沉澱，接受了一些很久都不願意面對的事實。
好多了。

謝啦。

-

對不起

有得必有失 vs 有失必有得

有失必有得
同樣道理
有得必有失

爲了得到一些東西
必須放棄一些原本已經擁有的幸福
還要在很不應該的時候
衰格

物質不滅定律？

這到底是誰定的鬼道理



我，今天也放棄了一份好x
以後會不會後悔 我不知道
只知道這樣一來更沒有藉口讓自己反悔了




Quote of the day: "成功不是必然的" -- a comment in my friend's blog

Friday

Just came back from our first jamming session after the long long 'holiday'.
Everyone's in good condition, as we need to prepare ourselves for our first ever gig.
I don't know bout the others, but me myself is very nervous.
First time playing drum, in a band, on the stage.
Will post more details about the gig. Hopefully :D

Enjoyed the session.

p/s of the day I : Hmm, gotta go back to the bright side. Things are starting to get outa control.

p/s of the day II : Hmm, coincidence really does happen. Huge surprise :)


p/s of the day III : Well, finally get to see my first developed 35mm film taken using my Holga. Hmm.. It proves that .. experiment fails. Haha. I didn't cover the red window at the back. And I should've ask them to scan the film into a contact sheet instead, as the width of each image is much wider than photo labs are used to dealing with. As the result, my photos are cropped. *sob*

Here are the few 'survivors'. You can imagine the other photos, in worse shape. Haha.
Continue to experiment. :)

Good night.