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獨自一個人拖著疲憊的身體回到靜悄悄的房間，隨機播放的Media Player很識趣的播了蔡健雅的"yellow"。這是少有的幾首讓我逢聼必想哭的歌。原唱者Coldplay也沒這種功力。蔡健雅的聲音總是很容易侵入我平日很努力建立起來的防護堡壘。

引用一句最近影響我很深的一個人說過的一句話：成長是痛苦的。沒有人能夠幸免。

我也不能幸免，但我知道我會挨過去的。

加油！

Returned to the lonely room with a very tired body and hollow mind, my shuffled media player just knew how to make me cry, it played Tanya Chua's "yellow" out of so many other songs in the playlist. It's one of a few songs that will make me feel wanna cry whenever I hear them. I never feel so bad even when I listened to the original version by Coldplay. I'm just so vulnerable to her voice.

A quote from a person who has recently influenced me a lot：the process of growing up is never easy, and it just seems like nobody is lucky enough to be excluded in this process.

Neither do I, but I know I will go through it.

All the best to me.

夢。想 Dream

一直以來從未正視過自己對音樂的熱愛，也一直故意去忽視自己想要從事音樂工作的夢想，只會很沒用的告訴自己那一切很不真實，也不可能。我很怯懦，最後就選擇了別人認爲我應該走的路去走，並不願意踏出追逐夢想的第一步。

最近參與了一些演奏會，也有幸地觀賞了一場非常棒的演唱會。閲讀了幾篇關於這幾場音樂會裏的靈魂人物一路走來的過程與經歷。我才突然又如當頭棒喝，領悟到一個我一只知道，卻不肯去承認的事實--如果你肯堅持自己的夢想，並用於去追求的話，他真的會實現的！

我不知道自己現在才領悟到這道理會否太遲，卻知道不可能回到過去，去選擇另一條與現在完全不同的路。只希望從現在開始去追求自己的夢想，還會有實現的一天。

回頭看看自己現在在做的事情，雖然可以確保自己活得不錯，不會餓死街頭，但終究不是自己真正喜歡的事。曾經天真地以爲只要工作完畢后，可以在業餘時間去進行自己興趣的活動。可是工作后才知道，放工后自己的私人時間實在是少得可憐，更甭論可以有時間去做自己真正喜歡的東西。突然發現自己真的離夢想越來越遠。。

我要的生活真的是這樣嗎？我不禁問自己。。人生短短數十載，我不想白白的過。我想我應該要開始過自己想要的生活，屬於自己的生活，不再成爲別人想要我成爲的那一個我。

祝福我吧。

p/s: po這篇的時候心情很激動，選擇用中文寫下，比較能表達自己的想法。突然發現自己真的好久沒用中文好好寫文章了，中文也退步了。。愧對祖先。

All the while I have been neglecting my love towards music, and the dream to pursue a career in music industry. I just told myself it is so unrealistic, and it will never become true. At the end, I chose the path that others think suited me the best，didn't stepped out my steps to chase my dream.

Recently I've been involved in a few concerts, and had the chance to witness a very awesome concert. After reading a few stories about how they realized their dream, and the way they've walked through to reach this stage, I suddenly realized a very easy 'concept' which I've already knew, but refused to admit it -- Your dream will come true if you believe in it, and you're willing to do anything to realize it.

I don't know whether it's too late for me to realize it now, but I know it's impossible for me to turn back and chose another path which is totally different from which I'm standing right now. I can only hope that it'll still not too late for me to chase my dream now.

Looking at what I'm doing right now, although it's more than enough to secure me from dying from hunger, but somehow it's just not what I really love to do. I used to think that I can still do things I like on my personal time after work. But after working for 2++ month, there's never sufficient personal time for me. I'm really getting further from my dream path..

Is this what I want for life? I doubt. Not sure how many decades I'll stay in this world, just don't wish that I'll waste any of my precious time doing things I don't like. Perhaps I should do something and live the life I want, the life that I should belong to, instead of what people hope me to be.

Wish me luck.

Hocc "Live in Unity" Concert 2006, Hong Kong Coliseum

This is going to be a long post. I'm supposed to post it when I'm still very hype after the concert, but.. too bad, I still have to gave in to the reality, to face the hectic working life. How I wish I could be a full time musician.. (daydreaming again)

In year 2002, my erhu sifu cum music mentor introduced me Hocc's song - 迷你与我 when I went to her house to jam songs(Ok, to be more precise, is to watch her play songs.. haha). Then I bought Hocc2 from CD store which include that songs. I think Hocc put some spell inside her cd, since then I'll just grab any Hocc CDs whenever i see them in store and that will keep me happy enough for the rest of the week. At that time, people around me doesn't even know who is Hocc, and the result pages returned by Google when I key in Hocc are so limited and outdated.

I never believe that I'm a lucky person, until I received a phone call from galaxy, informing me that I'm one of the grand prize winners for a digi sms contest I've took part 1 week before, and the grand prize is a trip to Hong Kong to watch Denise Ho's (Hocc) first concert, at her 10th year as an artist. I was very excited as I've been dreaming to watch Hocc performing live. I never ever thought that the first live performance that I'm able to watch will be her first ever concert. Dream came true, and I still can't believe it until now, although the concert is over. Suffering from post-HoccConcert-syndrom..

Other than the 3 winners from digi, there's another winner from 988, which is an extreme Hocc fan, and reporters from local chinese newspaper, and Simon, the 988 dj. Another good thing about the trip is to get to know these people in entertainment industry, and know more about the things they do. Well, there're too many things to tell about the trip, but I'll focus on the concert at this time. I'm still in the concert hype mood until now, as the concert is a really great one. Just realized that she's now a star in Hong Kong, as people started to dig out her old cds and sell them at very high price, and you can see her posters or photos selling out there.. Glad that the true star has finally came out from being hidden by the clouds.

Galaxy gave us good seats, which are only few rows from the stage, and I managed to grab few nice pictures. In fact, I was busy to capture every single moment of Hocc on stage, with my FZ-5, while enjoying her music and the great visual effect she's giving on stage. She's one of very few artist that has presented artistic elements in her concert. I was stunned at few parts in the concerts, when she and her dancers presented modern dance art in their dances. Awesome.

Never dreamed that I will be able to step inside Hong Kong coliseum, but I'm IN now, and a very great star will be shining on the stage very soon.


The main character on the stage before show starts.


Hocc has fans from different countries, to name a few from the signs I saw, they are from Montreal, Torronto, New Zealand, and many more.. and Malaysia of course.


Finally Hocc is out, and everyone in the coliseum gets high immediately. The stage is specially designed under Hocc's idea to represent her career, from zero to what she possesses now. She came out from a corner, and slowly, she rises up onto a high position in the center of the stage while singing "光榮之家". I can't help but yelled like crazy. Everyone got crazier after she said, "你地唔係仲坐係度下嘛?"..whoa~


She picked up her guitar, and sang "千千萬萬個我" as the first song. I was very touched when I saw the coliseum is full with audiences, and everyone is focusing on her, listening her singing her own songs. I guess she must be very touched too, as she cried a little bit during this first song. I almost cried out too.. You've made it, finally!!


She then continue to sing few rock songs in her collection.




Cool! Too bad she was always facing other directions during her solos.




View from behind, her first rock girl suit.


I love her hairstyle!!!


Roar!! I'm the king tonight!


Clap with me~


Introducing her band cum battle mates. She praised them in the concert, but asked other singers not to hire them coz she wanna keep them for herself. Ha.


They have cool costume too.


Talking. She's high.. We're high too..


Close up


The cellist and violinist. Violin is little bit pitchy at first, but got better later.


The second suit of the night - a red paper dress. It's one of a few parts I love most in the concert. She sang 神經痛，天使藍 in this posture, imitating a music box doll without much expression, but I felt more pain at that moment.






Angels


The third suit.


..And this dancer just climbed out from her long long dress behind.


Eventually she just went there and hugged her fans.


A very cute jumper. She sang "牛牛戀曲" -> 《未來》，《明目張膽》


《夜半敲門》She walked through one door after another, looked back sometimes, but continue to walk front.


Glamorous. This suit is designed by 劉培基，Anita Mui's designer good friend, using the same cloth material as Anita Mui's concert suit in her last concert. Hocc has done a good job to continue Mui 姐's spirit.










《你是八十年代》，《艷光四射》. She shines on the stage, indeed a glamoring star.


I was very surprised when I saw her playing piano. Didn't know she can play it very well. She played Anita's 《孤身走我路》as a tribute to her, and thanked her for changing her life. Touched.


The seat reserved for Anita Mui. She must be very proud of her.


《絕對》to thank her parents.






She dedicated the song 《圓滿》 to her fans.


《鉄幕誘惑》，the song she sang when she took part in the singing contest. Definitely much more cooler than Aaron. :P






She brought out her guitar again, for the last song - 《光榮之家》. Indeed, it's like the lyrics -> “全場在Why~ Ya~ Ya~ Ya~ Ya~ Ya~” 很壯觀，很感動！


Ok, she's out again for the encore part. Guess what, SAMMI is here too. Looks like rumours are true sometimes.


Sammi is hyperactive that night, and our pity Hocc have to look after as the special designed stage is very dangerous.


Finally, her own encore pieces, 《勁愛你》+《小丸子的心事》. Very cute!

I'm still living in the concert memory. It was so unreal, and I still can't pull myself out. I'm deeply addicted to Hocc now.. I brought all her cds that I've collected since her first ep to office, and listened carefully to every single song inside.. She's really a brilliant singer cum composer. Every melody touched my heart. Can't really describe my feelings now. I'm getting crazy..

Ah C, finally, you've made it. You made everyone wowed at your concert after so many years waiting. You've proved that true talent will be seen after all. You shine, and I'm proud of you. Keep it up, and continue to do the things you like. I'll continue to support you like I always did for all these years. Way to go, Ho Goo~

p/s: Post concert dinner (慶功宴）...

Very happy, and still energetic..


"Yum Seng" session... using Pepsi.. |||


"Uncle Carl"


Started her marathon interview session..


Trying hard to answer every question..


Repeating same answers to same questions in different sessions.. Pity..


Ok, another TV station..


Doink..


Finally it's Malaysia media's turn.. And it's already 2am++. In fact they're are the last one in the queue. Simon from 988 is the one in white shirt, who are responsible to ask question. Others are the reporters.


Ooo~~ I almost faint when she's so near. Haha.. Nola.. nothing much in mind that time, just hope everything ends faster so that she can go celebrate with those that she really wants to celebrate with and rest earlier, instead of entertaining medias and people she doesn't know, like us.. hahaha..

But I'm still very very very happy.. hahahah..

I'm still suffering from serious ho goo disease. Deep trouble..